Le Fugitif

January 10, 2009

Lost and to be found – Amritsar, me and photography

Filed under: [2006-2010] Wind Talker | 风语者 — cyan6 @ 11:17 pm
In Amritsar, I have been looking at the Golden Temple (Harmandir Sahib), and ask it: ‘what is the purpose you draw me here?’
— Three months ago, I saw a picture of the Golden Temple, what made me started to plan the trip to India and finally made the decision.
Sadly, both of my cameras (M7 M35/2 + G2 G28 G45 TLA200 + 4 rolls of films I shot) were stolen in the Day 3rd at New Delhi train station. After recovered from the shock, I asked my tenant in Australia to mail me the backup camera that was in my house to Amritsar, the city i was going to stay for a while, to make sure I am still able to take some shots from India. So I have been trapped in my ‘holy’ city, waiting for my backup camera, going to nowhere.
In the past week, every day I spend 40 minutes to walk through most of the crowded, noisy, dirty and smelly city, form the hostel I stayed to the post office, to ask whether my camera had come. Yet the answers from the post officer’s mouth disappointed me each time, and I felt I might annoy him by the frequency I talked to him. However, by the time I left Amritsar, I still couldn’t get my parcel.
Finally I figure out the reason. I was told by my tenant that they sent the camera by ‘sea mail’ (takes at least 15 days), rather than ‘express mail’ (normally takes 4-5 days) that I asked them to send…because they were informed that was a cheaper way to send a international parcel.
Didn’t they know I was dying to get my backup camera?  

…but I couldn’t blame them, because they were just doing me a favor.

So who should I blame then?
Only myself, stupid and disarming, what made me lost my cameras, and what have totally ruined my mood in the trip.
…5 days, I was sitting at the bank of the Sarovar (pool of nectar) around the golden temple, looking at this shinny and magnificent structure. Even I couldn’t see, I knew my face was emotionless all the time, like a death fish.
I kept asking the Harmandir Sahib:
‘Oh my holy temple, what is the fxxking purpose you draw me here?’
‘Is this my destiny to be knee down in front of you?’
‘Is there any religious relationship or fate between you and me?’
 … I dipped my feet in the pool, I feel the cold of the water but no answers.
Thousands of Sikh pilgrims walk pass through my face everyday.
They took bath in the holy pool in the freezing morning; the temperature was around 5 degree I think.
They knee down and kissed every door they entered.
They were singing the contents in the holy book for a whole day.
They slept under the encircling walkway around the pool at the night, when they woke up the next day, they prayed. 
These are their daily routine.
When I was seeing all of these, I gradually found the reason I was there.
I came to Amritsar as the same way as the Sikh pilgrims, for salvation. 
I feel released; I understand staying in Amritsar is not the fate between me and the God (Sikhism God), but just a little challenge of my desire of being a photographer.
I will be nobody but only a pilgrim of photography.
God, now you are sure that I can lose all my cameras…
but I will never give up a little bit of my passion of taking pictures.
More information of Golden Temple and Amritsar can be found in the below web page



  1. 塞翁失马,焉知非福

    Comment by Trista — January 11, 2009 @ 1:41 am

  2. I can image ur \’death fish\’ face~~sorry to hear tat, really`~~ :(

    Comment by Pianpian — January 11, 2009 @ 9:53 am

  3. God bless you.

    Comment by Leo — January 11, 2009 @ 1:42 pm

  4. that was an interesting experience, maybe some prower is trying to make you thinking without cameras, trying to introduce you peaceful. Enjoy everything in you trip.常常在迷惑, 為何攝影者能把自己置身於各種場景事外呢. Sa永遠都辦不到這點,一旦陷入場景,就常常不會好好影相. 還是很佩服這一眾人等(當然包括Y&L).

    Comment by Sasa — January 11, 2009 @ 3:06 pm

  5. Well, first, I feel very sorry for your cameras have been stolen,fellow. But I hope that won\’t disgust your stay there. I have been in Egypt for 2 weeks and that ,frankly speaking, would be unforggetable travel and experience in MY LIFE. I didn\’t care much about the landscape of Nile and the pharaoh\’s mystic history, but Iv discouvered the real aspect of Egypt I had never learnt before.(I hope you will understand what I am trying to say implicitly) Enjoy your trip and come back savely. At last, HAPPY NEW YEAR, MATE. SEE YA IN GZ.(PS.: My gal friend said that the lost of the cams might be your bad fate, but what ur friend did for you is absolutely a fxking farce of the God)

    Comment by louis — January 12, 2009 @ 3:27 am

  6. 我想,在没有相机的这些天里,你不妨尝试一下用自己真正的眼睛去观察身边的世界,尝试一下完整的连贯的体会。这样的体验也许会给你重新端起相机的时候带来不同的视角。

    Comment by sue — January 13, 2009 @ 11:49 am

  7. 言:很遗憾 ,没关系 , 加油leophotos.blogbus.com

    Comment by nio — January 15, 2009 @ 12:34 pm

  8. 係你冇同人講清楚你急需相機啊~~ 咁最後你係咪冇攞倒啊? 成篇文,我好似睇唔倒你有冇啰到,定抑或我明唔曬啦.呵呵~~加油啊. 主與你同在~!!!

    Comment by Alan — January 16, 2009 @ 3:21 am

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